I have reflected a lot
about my situation over the last few weeks. I was so so close to being through
the rough part of recovery before I got this second major blow. My surgery was
absolutely traumatic the first time, requiring me to stay in the hospital for 4
days, nerve block didn't work, nor did the narcotics. I can't believe I have to
go through that again!!! Ahhhhh! Well at least when I have a baby one day it
should be easy compared to this, right?
I came across two
quotes that helped me pull myself out of the darkness.
"Don't let what
you can't do keep you from what you can"
"Don't cry
because it's over, smile because it happened"
I have refocused
myself on finishing my PhD...which I am weeks away from finishing, because
while it's hard to get around and a struggle to do the simplest tasks, my brain
is just fine. However, now it is apparent that I will have to defend my
dissertation in a cast from a wheelchair....yippee.
The second quote
inspired me to dig up some of my old race photos and reminisce on how much fun
I had. I was literally having the time of my life and the smiles I have on my
face on my finish photos are absolutely priceless. No faking that kind of
happiness. I know that being positive about all of this stuff is something I
have to work on daily, so I am not out of the woods by any means, but it did
help me to remember what has come before in my life. I am even more motivated
to get back to the place that I can walk out of the door and go do anything
physical that my heart desires.
Staying positive...for now.
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